Peter and Dan forayed into opinion pieces and other more topical stuff, but I was always seeking something more literary with my own stuff. I contented myself with my first few steps into poetry, with occasional one-off short stories for good measure. It really was intended to be a place to thumb our noses at the school, certain student organizations, and any other topic we felt strongly about. When we started The Amethyst Exchange, or AE, we weren't out to change the world. I don't believe it was caused by an overwhelming desire to have my words read. I don't know if that stemmed more from causing mischief, which has always been a motivating factor for my decisions, or more from being impulsive. At first mention, I thought it was a good idea. One day my friend Peter came up with the idea of doing an underground arts journal to directly compete against the one La Salle Arts Society was positing as being new and edgy. Nope, those days I would write old-school on my word processor, print it out, and then lock it away for posterity. And it was also ages before the internet, precluding any notions of my publishing anything seconds after writing it.
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This was in the days before I met Breanne or Jina so there wasn't one obvious person who I automatically sent everything to once completed. I honestly think I could go my whole life with only two or three people reading my stuff. I merely thought my writing was for me and to share it would be diluting it somehow. It wasn't that I didn't think it was good enough.
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I don't know-I'd been writing all my life, but up until my junior year of high school, I'd never really shared my writing with too many people. I'm hoping she'll be a new voice with ideas that have never been explored before.īack at La Salle, I had a similar desire. But she also reminds me of a younger Breanne in her unwavering desire to find joy in the everyday.Īt the bottom of it all, I'm hoping she'll find a niche here. In a few words since I don't want to try sum her up when she's perfectly capable of doing that herself, she reminds of myself in her fretting and her introspective qualities. Hopefully, she won't drift away in a few months time as that will entirely screw up the experiment in so many ways. and myself, with Toby coming in we could sometimes shift attention to how friendships get built from the ground up. Rather than be a picture of how two old coots, B.
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Or, as Breanne spun it, this could encompass the overall of theme of friendship that seems to permeate a lot of the writing here.
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That still might happen, but circumstances being as they are, with Breanne unfortunately dealing with problems at home and myself feeling like the majority of my best stories have been told, we thought a new voice might not be so bad. I know she's more than a capable writer, but I was worried that, unlike Breanne whose stories sometimes relate to me in one way or another, Toby would be too independent. While there will be some stories she might be able to tell regarding me, the bulk is going to stem from her own experiences. I was agonizing over it because I've only known her a short time and this place has always been somewhat personally directed. After a few weeks of agonizing, we've decided to welcome Toby into the fold at california.